
For about five minutes I constantly took photos (as were others, and everyone else had their noise-making photo-taking Samsungs while I used my quiet iPhone). Sungyeol noticed, grabbed my phone (which had an Infinite keychain on it...), selected the Camera Roll, and started selecting all of the photos I took of him. At first I thought he was changing my background to him or was going to take a selca with me...but then he kept selecting photos (as I got a little carried away...) and once he selected them all, he tried to delete them. (You can only delete multiple selected photos on the Photos app, not Camera Roll...) so I showed him to do it individually while apologizing in Korean. I was so caught off guard and felt so guilty that I was using that scared, whiny, I'm-about-to-cry voice and kept saying 최승해요 and added 저는...delete. He deleted one photo and one video, and I deleted some more in front of him. He told me that he's deleting them in Korean and my friend translated. This was all with his straight face, as I felt so ashamed of myself. He then went back to behind the counter. Five to ten minutes later, at around 9:15, he and a manager left, with fangirls following closely behind.
My initial reaction and concluding thoughts: I honestly felt like I had become a sasaeng fan at that moment, and felt so ashamed that I should revoke my Inspirit life. I didn't want to associate myself with Infinite as I felt so ashamed at what I had become. (Even three hours later I'm still holding off watching their comeback stage. This is much worse than Myungsoo's scandal). As my first encounter with an idol (let alone him being my second bias), I didn't want him to remember me as *that* crazy girl. He singled me out and no one else, so in that sense I felt like I had crossed the line by taking so many photos. But after clearing my head and getting multiple opinions, I am clearly just an international fangirl who just wanted to eat at his restaurant, it's not like I wait out every night hoping he'll come to the restaurant so I can violate him. And it's clearly known that this is Sungyeol's restaurant and that he works here often, so therefore fans will come here to see him and take photos. This is clearly a marketing strategy, a really well-planned one too, for more customers to come. And everyone inside is also a fan to begin with, so of course people will take photos. But then also this is Sungyeol's personality at airports, how he avoids fans and whatnot. But thinking about airports, people activately follow Infinite to see exactly what time they'll be there and take photos and videos while I was actually going to the restaurant to eat. So what I'm getting at is, I've learned to tone down my fangirl feels (though it was perfectly accepted at Dongwoo's) and respect people's privacy (I definitely gave him space, I didn't try to go near him!). But I don't think I'm completely in the wrong...I'm just very confused now. All I know for sure is he held my phone, he stood right next to me, he knows I exist (but maybe not in a good way?).
I feel bad to post any photos from this trip, and I didn't dare take any more photos of the interior of the restaurant, even after he left. I can never show my face in the vicinity of this restaurant again, and I had to pay in cash for fear that they'll track down my credit card (I'm still on their security camera ㅠㅠ), so I'm a bit sad about that. But honestly, since there are hired workers here and not Sungyeol's family, and this is located in a bustling area, it has that type of restaurant feel where you have to act a certain, high class way. Versus Dongwoo's restaurant, I felt so homey, and being immersed in my surroundings was not just acceptable, but appreciated. And at Hoya's, where I did feel a little distant from his father, but it still had a nice, quaint hole-in-the-wall setting. I just hope I'll bounce back to my Infinite obsession soon as I've definitely over invested in their upcoming concert.
A few days later, I'm finally barely able to post some pictures from this visit. The banchan included radish cubes (which don't really go with fried chicken) and salad with noodles. We ordered boneless fried chicken, which came with fries, chips, and three sauces: ketchup, mustard and BBQ sauce. Honestly I couldn't savor this meal and have been trying to bury this dinner out of my memories so I don't have much else to say.












































